thoughts

[Samsoum]

So Hammered,broken and sad; am writing this,and i don't know even why am doing it.
Some people think that it would be ridiculous to think about writing when it's supposed to be the last thing u can do at that time,well this time, we're not talkin about that here,we're talkin about now, this moment,the seconds running now,u know; it's just silly and funny,i'll tell u something now that u know,this is the irony of situation,u know it,it's so dangerous,so miserable,we all know it but no one gives a damn about it,the seconds,these seconds,they are fading, fading for ever,they r not coming back,u know,i would give everythin to have some of my fading seconds; hell yeah!
Okay, okay okay okay;
am gonna die ok?
am fading away, just like my seonds, just like my life which is actually loosing days, day after day; here's this day, i lived it, not fully but the clock never stops u know,so it's counted,it's not high school to bring a medical certificate and join the class, it's life, the funny thing is that people r not giving a damn about their life in a general sense of the term, but they gives much care about work,being on time, following the GMT or whatever they call it.
as i said, Irony of Sort, Batteries we are and we will be out! one day, the day is coming.
Life is too short, this is what everybody knows,sometimes u talk about the hot stuff,with some dudes,in class,street,caffé wherever,we talk about girls,this is what we call hot stuffs,look at me,i make u feel pity,i know
U know something?
i had a look to my life,i found nothing
nothing at all
reading this is so normal,even me when i read what i was typing i maybe find it silly,NEVER THINK THAT WAY.
trust me,only the smart will find out what i mean,it took me long time to say, to just say it,maybe u can give me some of the indulgence,and read it,just read,u'll never loose anythin anyway, but am sure that u'll come out with something.
what am writing doesn't have an aim.
no aim
just like no shame; funny
the words are likely typed,red or written
but they are not likely felt.
Advice: Don't believe everything u see
Appearances are deceptives
people are fake
i'am fake
yeah
U live only once
i got a life, a perfect one,i've lost it
hang on,look for somebody u can spend the rest of ur life with,stick together,there is no such thing worse than dying alone.
People before i was born,had given the Qualities and the values of a real good Man. the human being as a perfect creature.
I'll Tell u know about the Ugliest Things ever that make a Man be such a bastard animal.
Those are words,just words; read and tell me what u feel..
Lies
Sex
Stealing
Killing
Cheating
Betrayal
Love
Money
Power
Abuse
Use
i have to think again about my whole scenario,my whole timeline schedule.
am getting empty spaces here,nothing to fill with,i hate empty things, don't u?
lost between the love of her,and the love of life.
Lost in this,in my mind,it's all going on in my mind,there is no such things outsider,just here,living with it by my self.
Am all yours,listening to u,tell me,anything,anything u want; i don't have any problem,to look for sollutions;m i getting out of my mind??
maybe it's a sort of loosing it loll
That's the dumpest thing i've ever heard


U know the feeling of sitting on something much likely to the steel?
or let me be directive,the feeling of staying awake till the dawn shows up,u feel somehow lazy and wanna sleep,it's the same thing just like lastnight,u said u'll keeep it,u'll be awake and u'll watch TV or chat or Play,but when 3 or 4 AM comes;u feel like that everythin was said wasn't urs,u turn back even if u know that there is no jury to judge u,it's all going on in ur mind,but u proceed and u try to convince ur self,we're living an extra life;because our current is not enough.
The people who really know how to live,they ask their selves questions.
Ask ur self
ask
just ask
where r u in all this?
where
it doesn't really matter if ur close a little bit or somehow or this shit; Dude, grow up.
we're living
we're going down
Wake up! we're here! we are here,check on ur self, take a knife and try,try to cut off ur finger,u'll see the blood comin out,bleeding.
no need to clap ur self or get ur heads knocked,i've done this before adn it's not workin to wake me up.
just take a short cut and don't waste time;it's ticking away, tic tac, tic, tac; put ur ear close to the clock and feel the beat sweety;feel ur life; u wanna see ur life? there is no easier thing to do; just listen to the clock when it's ticking.
how bad, and how sad..get the fuck off me now!
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Samsoum